Shock

Last night the kids asked to see video of Eva's birth, so David got everything hooked up to play some tape for them. I also wanted to see something: how long I actually pushed. I knew it was a very short amount of time; I only pushed 3 or 4 times, during one contraction, I think.

So the video was playing and I was back in labor and everyone in the room was joking around; David was shooting the monitor that showed my contractions in a nice pattern, and Angela was saying, "That's not a contraction, that's Angi scratching an itch."

And then there's a break in the video and there is Eva, all purple and being cleaned up by the nurses.

No video of birth, no audio.

I couldn't believe my eyes or ears.

Like the moment when Debra realizes Ray has taped a football game over their wedding video.

"What happened??? Where is the video???"

"I didn't shoot that--remember, I was next to you, holding your hand."

"I saw you setting up the tripod!"

"I couldn't find a good place to put it."

"Anywhere would have given us at least the audio!"

"You didn't say you wanted that."

I reminded him that I had audio of MASON's first cry, through the door.

24 hours later, I am still in shock at not having the video.

I changed hospitals and doctors to have that, and again, I don't have it.

Thankfully, I have photos since Amy shot them for us.